There are Days

By Aaron in : Blog // Mar 6 2017

There are days that my whole mind, body, and heart feel weary from doing this. There are times when security and comfort sound like incredible alternatives to vagabonding. I miss my friends in just about every place I’ve been. I miss my routine in the early mornings. I’m road-weary and older by a few years than I thought I’d be when I would have quit if I hadn’t made it. .
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But a part of my soul is growing, that stagnates when I’m still. And the road-weariness eventually gives way to song fuel. I made a lot of silly decisions about my age when I was too young to understand the years and what really matters. There is a beat inside me that won’t stop pounding in my ears.
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I love the way a song feels when it starts to write itself. I love the way my pain and darkness and selfishness fall away when I get in front of an audience. My performer’s ego is ironically only tamed during performance. I am free for a song, then free for an evening. It’s not just addiction or insanity, it’s love.
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I think I’m finally starting to understand that the desire for security and comfort can’t be satisfied by saying yes to those things. It can only be satisfied by listening to the music, by searching honestly for the truth of a thing, and putting it into song. .
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I’m not a very spiritual person, but I know that I have answers in a deeper, more conscious part of myself, that are more accurate than anything I can arrive at by thinking. I know my own heart. I just have to let it through. Whenever I listen – and it’s damn hard to do so – I always find the way… security and comfort included. Only by trying to engineer a safer way forward, do I end up lost and disconnected. .
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Days like today are good days to remember that. It’s time to listen to what I know and make music for the next adventure. Love to you all. Thanks for being here.


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I Can’t Describe it

By Aaron in : Blog // Apr 16 2015

After three weeks of international touring, I’m half way through my quick 40 hours back home before I fly out again. It’s a strange feeling to be packing for a red eye to New York for more tour shows mere hours after returning from Europe. It’s a wonderful feeling to have spent a combined total […]


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Wall of Fire

By Aaron in : Blog // Feb 15 2015

I almost quit music in November. I had just finished Heart on Fire, and finally had time to breathe…. then it hit me. I didn’t want to do this anymore. The frenetic pace of creation and the race to get the next thing done… are incredibly effective distractions. I don’t think I had ever really […]


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Rejected

By Aaron in : Blog // Sep 18 2014

When I was fifteen, I sent a handful of demos with three of my songs to a company that forwarded material to record labels and publishers. The rejection letter I received three weeks later was devastating. In retrospect, it was also warranted. The material was horrible. The delivery and production were sophomoric. The vocals were […]


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One More Time

By Aaron in : Blog // Sep 7 2014

“Every adversity carries within it, the seed of an equivalent or greater benefit.” – Napoleon Hill _________________________________________________________________________   “One more time. Get up. Fight. This is not the end of the story.” So remote. So foreign. So distant. I wasn’t sure if I had really heard it. Well… I definitely hadn’t heard it in a […]


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Dots

By Aaron in : Blog // Jul 10 2014

Green… everywhere… Sometimes it’s hard to picture it now that I spend most of every year in the desert. July 2006: I was nearing the top of the M hiking trail in Bozeman, watching a thunderhead roll over the still snow-capped mountains in the distance. The sparsely populated valley below me was so damn beautiful […]


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The Mountain

By Aaron in : Blog // Jan 25 2014

“Don’t get so caught up staring at the mountain, that you trip over stones in your path.” A friend of mine said that back in 2011. It changed my life. My dream was a mountain… barely visible on the horizon. I was stumbling along the winding road through the plains, obsessively focused, thinking: “if I […]


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The Real Deal

By Aaron in : Blog // Jan 11 2014

Nine years ago, I started traveling around Montana and the Northwest to play shows in bookstores and coffee shops with my first album. I had no idea what I was doing. I had booked a lot of this haphazard “tour” on a random determined Tuesday in the spring of 05, during the motivational afterglow of […]


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Enough

By Aaron in : Blog // Nov 22 2013

I’ve been reading and listening to a lot of biographies lately. I love them. I love that they’re never what I expect – even when I know a lot about the subjects before-hand. I love discovering three-dimensional human beings behind endlessly-propagated caricatures and anecdotes. I love the moment in the course of every good one […]


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The Road at Midnight

By Aaron in : Blog // Oct 10 2013

I clearly remember the day… the moment… that I became a singer/songwriter for life. I was sixteen years old… at a camp talent show in Seattle.  I had already been writing songs for three years.  I thought it was one of the coolest things in the world that my favorite artists could get under my […]


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A “Real” Record

By Aaron in : Blog // Sep 23 2013

This post is about my new album “Heart on Fire.” Check it out on KickStarter! “So do you want to make a real record?” It was 2 in the afternoon and I had been up for close to twenty hours when I heard it… so I sort of stammered… “wh-what do you mean by that?” “You’re […]


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Its Own Reward

By Aaron in : Blog // May 28 2013

So I was at an event with a bunch of high profile speakers last week and something one of the guys said really bothered me.  I can’t quote him exactly, but the Sum and substance of what he said was this: if you think you have to work hard to accomplish great things, you just […]


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Home

By Aaron in : Blog // May 6 2013

I’m 28 years old and I’ve lived in 22 different places, with “lived” being defined as “stayed for more than three months.”  I might have used a longer period of time, but in order to do that, I would have had to eliminate a good portion of my life from the count. I lived in […]


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Square One

By Aaron in : Blog // Apr 12 2013

I’ve written 9 songs in the last two years that are all spectacular exercises in “almost.” Songwriting really does require it’s own kind of faith and persistence… because sometimes writing with everything you’ve got brings you to the threshold but not across it. And it’s hard to measure it or know why. I can’t put […]


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Unseen

By Aaron in : Blog // Apr 6 2013

From “The Builders” by Henry Wadsworth Longfellow: For the structure that we raise, Time is with materials filled; Our todays and yesterdays Are the blocks with which we build. Truly shape and fashion these; Leave no yawning gaps between; Think not, because no man sees, Such things will remain unseen. I turn twenty-eight today.  Over […]


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My Real Dream

By Aaron in : Blog // Mar 22 2013

So I’ve had and followed one dream for most of my life… but I’ve been thinking a lot about what I really want lately… some major changes in my life over the last year have brought me to the point of questioning everything. Here’s the thing:  My dream is just a means to an end.  […]


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The Truth

By Aaron in : Blog // Jan 8 2013

So here’s the truth: I’ve almost given up… like… really given up.  More than once, I’ve fully embraced the idea that this whole thing was the result of having followed a kid’s folly far beyond where it should have ended… the result of stubbornly carrying my naivete into adulthood, because being a little crazy was […]


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Presence

By Aaron in : Blog // Jan 4 2013

For the first time in a while, I’m taking full advantage of the crossover into a new year to really reconsider my approach to life.  And in spending a little time alone putting my thoughts on paper, my feelings about why this year would be different, have changed entirely.  This is not the post I […]


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Elephants

By Aaron in : Blog // Jul 2 2012

I’ve been questioning my limitations lately.  What is the real edge of my ability vs. the one I made up after failing at something once or twice?  I was reading a bunch about the idea of “learned helplessness” today, and I ended up stumbling across this passage from The Gift of Fear, by Gavin De […]


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What Got Me Here

By Aaron in : Blog // Mar 1 2012

Looking back over the last two years, I find myself truly proud. This post is about why I need to do more to move forward. I’ll start with the previous three years.  My Dad, AKA my best friend, died suddenly in 2007, and before I had recovered from his death, I met an incredible girl […]


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Resistance

By Aaron in : Blog // Feb 9 2012

“Most of us have two lives. The life we live, and the un-lived life within us. Between the two stands Resistance.” – from The War of Art by Steven Pressfield . . . “I’m not making this record.  I just don’t have it in me.” It’s still hard to believe those words came out of […]


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My Last Failure

By Aaron in : Blog // Jan 22 2012

It really feels like winter tonight.  It’s snowing outside my house in Bozeman, Montana.  It feels funny to write that: “my house.”  Everything about my life for the last month has been wild and unpredictable.  I love adventure, but when things get uncertain enough, I tend to feel really lost. Last month, I totaled my […]


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Heart on Fire

By Aaron in : Blog // Nov 18 2011

Not too long ago, I was driving by the park close to my apartment in Phoenix, and I saw a young kid  playing basketball by himself well after dark… it was really cool to watch… I mean this kid was attacking it!  In spite of the fact that I had no frame of reference, I […]


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HATCH – Part Two

By Aaron in : Blog // Oct 19 2011

http://hatchexperience.com I arrived in Bozeman on Monday morning, desperately needing sleep.  I crashed hard for 4 hours, then met Leif Christian for a late lunch – Leif was the Montana Groundbreaker this year, and also happens to be a close friend and musical mentor.  After lunch, and a brief stop at Peach Street Studios, we […]


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HATCH – Part One

By Aaron in : Blog // Oct 12 2011

The HATCH website -> http://hatchexperience.com One year ago to the day, I spent my first day back in Arizona after completing production on “More than Maybe” – the album that has truly changed everything about my life.  I had literally slept on the floor of the studio for most of 8 months, living, dreaming, eating, […]


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The Point of No Return

By Aaron in : Blog // Sep 28 2011

It’s been raining all day. The Chicago street corner outside the window is shimmering under the light of dozens of lamps and neon signs.  As night falls, the scene only seems to be getting brighter.  Countless coat-clad pedestrians have taken shelter under umbrellas, because what was a light drizzle for several hours, has just become […]


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Sing Along

By Aaron in : Blog // Sep 8 2011

Quite a few people have been requesting expanded versions of the stories that I tell about songs at shows – as blog posts… so here we go… from the beginning. Here's a YouTube video of the song this post is about: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sh_r9H3G5N4 Sometime in the winter of 2002. I was 17 and the absurdity of […]


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Remembering Again

By Aaron in : Blog // Jul 27 2011

At first, I wasn’t going to share this, because it was sort of just me… putting my own catharsis on paper.  But I re-read it, changed some tense and person, and realized that I do want to say this “out loud.”   This is – once again – a personal post. When I get caught […]


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Wild and Winding Road

By Aaron in : Blog // Apr 6 2011

I turn 26 today. Birthdays are usually not the kinds of things that make me think about where I was, where I am, and where I could be, but 26 is a big one for me for some reason (maybe cause it’s closer to 30 than 20… I don’t know.)  Anyway… I’ve been discussing the […]


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Count to three go on two

By Aaron in : Blog // Mar 23 2011

“What am I really afraid of?” is a question that has been going through my mind a lot lately. Years ago, when I was wannabe freestyle skier, building jumps at Bridger Bowl with my friends, we had a philosophy: make the decision to do the trick. Entirely commit – then count to three but GO […]


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The Good Stuff

By Aaron in : Blog // Feb 14 2011

I never intended to write this. But something pretty amazing happened (more on that later) and I was inspired. This is how I know I'm already living my dream: I got into this because I wanted to carry the weight of people’s hardships with my songs.  When I was a melodramatic overly-emotional 15 year old, […]


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A Life of Music

By Aaron in : Blog // Jan 16 2011

It’s been a pretty rough couple of days… I got caught up in the drudgery of the business side of things.  A series of events and conversations had me feeling like I was miles and miles from a place where I could even begin to get my music “out there,” and the  list of things […]


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Pretty Little Liar

By Aaron in : Blog // Dec 29 2010

It’s a beautiful sight – downtown Bozeman Montana on December 7th of just about any year– it’s everything that a thoughtful artist would put into a painting if his aim was to inspire a childlike naiveté in a Christmas cynic.  It’s like the first verse of the song Silver Bells.  The crowded sidewalks are covered […]


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"You don’t have to see the whole staircase."

By Aaron in : Blog // Nov 5 2010

I was driving to old town Scottsdale on Monday night to meet a few friends for a goodbye party.  Right when I got on the 101 freeway, I was suddenly reminded in a vivid visual flash, of the first time I ever went there. It was very early in 2007 – somebody’s birthday – which […]


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In the last year…

By Aaron in : Blog // Oct 31 2010

Today is a significant date for me: it was exactly one year ago, that I lived, very possibly, the most challenging day of my life. In the last year I… Had my heart broken more times than I have in the rest of my life combined Cried instead of slept more nights than I want […]


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Music is Magic

By Aaron in : Blog // Oct 26 2010

So I’m sitting at a coffee shop in Tempe, Arizona right now listening to a jazzy piano player rock covers of everything from the Beatles and Ray Charles to Singing in the Rain, Moon River, and Somewhere Over the Rainbow– and the whole time the crowd at the place is singing along with sometimes average-at-best […]


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I need more than maybe

By Aaron in : Blog // Oct 19 2010

My feelings about the hardest years of my life distilled into 5 words: “I need more than maybe.” Everything I’ve wanted since I was old enough to know I wanted anything always seemed so relevant and possible, that it never occurred to me that I wasn’t entitled to it.  There was nothing waiting around the […]


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Music

By Aaron in : Blog // Oct 10 2010

…When I discovered music, everything changed. I used to listen to records in every available waking moment and the best of the artists could say with music and words what I could only feel. About 10 years ago, I decided that what I wanted more than anything was to be able to do that myself. […]


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